This week was a big deal. Garrett transitioned to a new school; preschool. Away from his comfortable little world that he's been in since he was 10 months old. He started the week and spent three days at the new school. He did well, has been excited to go back every day, and while it's a totally different experience than where he's been, I'm hopeful. That said, it was a transition week--Thursday and Friday were spent at the family daycare he's been at for so long. Which meant that tonight, upon pickup, was when we had to say goodbye.
So on this day, as I wind down from a difficult week, and with Garrett not truly understanding, what I feel to be, the magnitude of it all, I want try to capture it in what I would think would be his voice if he was a little bit older and understood.
Here goes...a love letter...not only to his provider, who has loved him since the first day he arrived to her house, but also to his friends...the friends he's spent every day with for the past 3+ years. This is for them.
Dear Ms. Helen, Carson, and Bernardo,
Today was my last day! But I don't think I realized it....and I don't think Carson and Bernardo did either. But you did, Ms. Helen. You knew.
To Carson and Bernardo...you've been like brothers to me...we've had our squabbles, but we always made up with hugs and friendship. We were essentially each other's first friends. We spent alot of time together. We learned to share, create, celebrate and explore from and with each other. We've been rascals. We've been sweet. We've been mad and frustrated. Before we could talk, we probably acted out in ways that made Ms. Helen wish the day would go by faster. But we got through it.
And now we're older. We've been together for so long. Every night I would talk about you to my mommy on our ride home---telling her the things we did (sometimes tattling and letting her know who got time outs and how many). Whenever something new happened to me at home or away from you guys, I would ALWAYS say "i have to tell Carson and Bernardo about this." No matter what it was about. When I was learning my ABC's...the first three were easy because I'd always say "B" for Bernardo, "C" for Carson. Well actually, for a long time, I said "Barno"...but eventually I got it right.
We've fought over the lawnmower and the swings outside...we've run in the sprinkler, played in the snow, and stomped in the mud. We've planted flowers, painted pictures, examined bugs, and watched a butterfly take flight. We've had the best of times. And now we'll be apart...but I hope we can find ways to see each other. Whether it be mini golfing and ice cream with Carson or picnics and playground time with Bernardo, I hope we find a way to still grow up together.
To Ms. Helen...your tireless patience, love, and devotion cannot be measured! You have greeted us every morning with a smile, hugged us when we were sad, fixed our boo-boo's when we got scrapes, and helped to foster our friendships. Thank you. Thank you for you and your family, who love us so, and we love you too! Thank you for the work you put into our days...the projects and art work we've created (my mommy can't seem to help but save everything I've done!). Thank you for making holidays special, birthdays magical, and every day wonderful. Thank you for feeding us such delicious food, teaching us songs, numbers, letters, and inspiring creativity. Thank you for having Mr. Bill come to read to us every week...for Hailey to come play with us when she got home from school, and Mr. Bert to help watch us when he got home too. Your family is our family.
So today was the last day...I was probably a little bit wound up. I don't really understand what is happening. And I won't for awhile. But mommy will make sure that I know eventually...that I will know how loved and cared for I was by you these first and early years of my life...and how being in your care was the greatest stepping stone I could have had to launch me into the next phase of growth. I don't understand the depth of it now but someday I will, I promise. For all you've done and more...thank you. We've been so lucky.
This is not goodbye. It's simply, see you later.